Hi I am Toni. I decided to start writing this blog to help with my depression. I am not a great writer at all and my thoughts jump all over the place. Please be patient with me. I find my inspiration in all kinds of places. I really find it in other people. I read other peoples blogs and it helps me to feel not so all alone and hopeless. Maybe I can do the same? I have to believe that.
My husband and I have been together 16 years, married for 14 years and have 2 children. We have known each other since elementary school. We have "dated" on and off since Junior High School. We were both married previously. It is kinda funny story how it all worked out for us. I just know it was meant to be and that the Lord really does work in mysterious ways.
I was injured 11 years ago and I am permanently disabled because of it. My injury, chronic pain, and all that comes with that is a major cause of my depression. I currently have no medical insurance so I am not able to see a psychiatrist or get any medication for my depression. I have taken antidepressants in the past and they helped a little. The side effects where so horrible though I do not know if I want to go back to that. People tell me that I just need to find the right one and dose.
I started hand writing a journal recently and while it is very painful to actually put some things in words, I have found it to be somewhat helpful. I can type a lot faster then I write so I thought maybe I will just blog it. Who knows maybe it will help. It can't hurt to try right? Besides it will give me something to do all those sleepless nights.
I am sure I will add more to this later but that is all for now.
Toni
